DECEMBER 20, 2012
369 CHRISTMAS PARTY + YSL,
DECEMBER 21, 2012
JP + DAN’S LEGALIZATION!
December 22, 2012
JESSI’S LEGALIZATION @ SKYE
How do you let go of 2012? The year when the world was supposed to end. It’s Christmas eve eve right now as I write this which means we’re past the said date of the end of the world. I’m happy it didn’t end. Or maybe at some point, I wanted it to. I know it didn’t end, but damn, some days of my 2012 felt like my heart just dropped and the world ended. But I survived those days.
It’s been a tough year. Started out great but little did I know my ber months would be hard as hell. I lost my big sister this year, September 6 to be exact. The strongest, bravest and toughest cancer fighter I’ve ever seen in my entire existence. I don’t know how I got through those days, but I did. It’s tough. It’s a battle everyday knowing that I won’t hear her voice anymore, see her anymore or get to talk to her. Until that day comes. There are times when I seriously forget that she’s not with us anymore knowing how lively my sister was and that she’d be the last person to leave us.
Everything seems so petty now. I want to hit myself for being so problematic over such small things. I used to sweat the small stuff. Now, it doesn’t matter at all. Losing a loved one is the most devastating thing that could ever happen and you’ll only understand when it happens to you.
My sister taught me how to brave the challenges ahead. Having cancer didn’t stop my sister from living her life to the fullest. In fact, I think that my sister really lived her life very well compared to some people who are cancer-free but live on hate, insecurities and whatnot. Nothing stopped my sister and that just proves that she died a fighter. She never gave up. Like what one of my sister’s friends said in the ABS-CBN mass/tribute and I quote
“We might feel that we have lost the battle but in fact, I think we won. Marion won over cancer.”
Definitely. If cancer had a mascot, it would look bruised and beaten. My sister had that fighting spirit which I think made her last. Not the chemo sessions, the radiation but her fighting spirit.
It took me weeks or months to be finally be able to write this blog entry. I lacked time due to school and probably, I lacked inspiration as well. Being the first Christmas without my sister pushed me to it.
I haven’t fully accepted the fact that she’s gone, but in time, I know I will. Like what I’ve been telling my best friend, Claudine, every time we talk about it.
“The pain will never go away. The pain will always be there but it becomes a part of you and you just learn how to live with it. “
I love Ate Marion so much and I know a lot of other people who feels the same way about her. I know she’s watching over me. Always. 🙂
I’d like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone who showed sympathy, support and love. Especially to my sister’s friends and my very own friends. I love you all so much!!!!
2012 was hella tough; so cheers to us for being tougher.
Ending this post with what my sister posted last New Year, welcoming 2012
“63 days of radiation, 10 chemo sessions and 2 major surgeries , some interesting facts about my 2011 : ) thankful to the Almighty for seeing me through and these stats are nothing to the 365 days of being with my ever loving and supportive family, the gift of well meaning friends , sincere well wishes, prayers, laughter , love and countless blessings I’ve been given in this journey : ) Have a great 2012 everyone! Make every moment count!”
There have been moments—actually, a lot of moments—when I’ve thought I’ll never be happy again. But I’m happy right now. You make me happy. – Grayson (Such a Rush by Jennifer Echols)
Grayson, the character from the book experienced such devastating events. His father and older brother died. I guess this is exactly how I feel at times after my big sister passed away. I feel like breaking down and all that, but I am reminded by my amazing group of friends and of course, my family that there will always be a reason to be happy.
Snuggled up in bed on a lazy Saturday? Movie marathons will save you from boredom! Here’s a list of movies you can watch with whoever; your boyfriend, your barkada, your family, your best friend or by yourself!
1. She’s the Man – I don’t think your boyfriends would be complaining about this movie! Chick flick + Football? Definitely not a bad combination. A topless Channing Tatum’s a bonus!
2. The Breakfast Club – Need I say more? 80s high school in its highest glory. Some find it boring because there are only five main characters but it’s really up to you. I love John Hughes’ films!
3. Love Actually – My favorite holiday rom-com! My sister’s the one who introduced me to this and we instantly love it because of the British cast! All I Want for Christmas is You’s in the soundtrack! Plus points for that.
4. Avengers – Superhero movie + adrenaline rush + gorgeous cast + witty lines? What more can you ask for?
5. Pitch Perfect – Just watched this yesterday and I am so putting it on my favorite movies list! I found it really cool and even my guy friend liked it (well, I’m assuming he did). Amazing soundtrack too, if I may add!
6. White Chicks – A crowd favorite! I just love imitating the lines from this movie!
7. Inception – Mindblowing movie. Enough said.
8. Crazy, Stupid, Love – So much love in this movie! Ryan Gosling’s body…. damn. Another rom com favorite.
9. Cheaper by the Dozen 1 & 2 – Nothing’s better than seeing Hilary Duff before her married stage, pre-puberty Taylor Lautner…
10. 10 Things I Hate About You – I learned that it’s based on Shakespeare’s The Taming of The Shrew when we read in second year if I’m not mistaken. Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Heath Ledger? Come on, this should be one of your favorites!!!
That’s all I could think of right now. I don’t even think someone would get to watch all of those in one sitting! But that’s the challennge. I guess if you’re really bummed out. 🙂
I know this should have been the first post here in my wordpress but I already imported my entries from my tumblr so….. guess that’s not happening! Oh well, hi WordPress! This is my first official wordpress entry. I’ve been dying (okay, a little too dramatic) to move to wordpress, blogspot, livejournal and the like to find a home for my personal blog but laziness gets the best of me and I end up staying in Tumblr WHICH IS NOT BAD AT ALL but I wanted a site wherein it would be easy to customize, post and be more, well, personal. SO HERE I AM!
It’s the last Friday of 2012 and I’m spending at home with my laptop. My parents told me not to go out for the rest of the year because of my epigastro blahblah so I really have no choice! I got to go to the gym earlier with Jessi and Lonzo though plus we headed to Rookie’s after to watch Pitch Perfect which was aca-awesome! 🙂 And now I’m having quality time with my bed and laptop.
That’s all for now!
My last Christmas party in MCHS! Thanks to IV-3 for living up to the senior year yolo vibe! Honestly loooved every part of this celebration except the sitting down on the floor paart during the mass. 😦 Nevertheless, I had a good time!
Angge, Kat and Paula
Bells, Alex, Jessi, Janella, Andrea and Cha!
Connnie and Sir Jayoma! The couple! HAHAHA
With my favorite Korean, JENNY!!! 🙂
Jessi and Bells!
With my favorite teacher, Sir Bigs!!!
Goofing around during the community mass…
Our buffet spread! Yummy food!
With Kat and Angge! 🙂 My small people.
With the FIAT family guest.
Nao and Imay. 🙂
Connie got her 10 cheetos Jalapeno!!!
With Sir Homarrrrzzzz. (y)
Love IV-3 to bits!!!
My class barkada. 🙂 Love y’all!
Photographer mode last Saturday! Helped my gorgeous friends with their English extra credit. They had to dress up like characters from Things Fall Apart. Thankful for our village which has a really convenient photoshoot spot! We should do this more often. 🙂
More shots —
BEHIND THE SCENES
WITH THE MODELS! (NAKS)
Photography + Post-processing by yours truly!
Make-up by Claudine Inocencio
Set furnitures c/o Jessi Borromeo
Styling and directing by EVERYONE. NOT EVEN KIDDING.